Discovering My Purpose: From Wanting to Be “Normal” to Wanting to be the Best Father in the World

Looking back at childhood, many of us may recall being asked what we want to be when we grow up. While some kids had clear aspirations, for others, it was a daunting question.

In grade one we were asked what we want to be when we grow up. The only thing I could think of was, “a normal man.” I reflect on that and two thoughts spring to mind.

  1. Unlike me, other kids seemed to have some idea of what they wanted to be.
  2. Oh, the irony. As a child, all I wanted was to be “normal,” and that was the one thing I could never to be.

I reminisce, and can think of many of my peers who knew what they wanted; fire captain (Duff in grade 3), an entrepreneur (Andrew, a different one, in grade 7), a soldier (Ross and Geoff, in grade 9), a high school English teacher (Rob in grade 12).

I never had that until 2007, when my wife delivered into the world kid 1. He was delivered by C-section, so while she spent some time in recovery, I was honoured to be the first person to hold him.

I sat in a rocking chair in the hospital nursery, looking down into the beautiful, black eyes of the most incredible, beautiful, and perfect being in the universe.

In that moment, I found what I wanted to be: the best father, and daddy, in the world to that wonderful little boy. A surety that was reinforced when I repeated the experience with both kids 2 and 3.

I’ve tried.

Sadly, I’ve made mistakes; large and small, but I’ve tried. And I’ve learned from them, and try never to repeat them.

Am I the best daddy in the world? Undoubtedly not, but I dedicate each and every day to the effort to get there.