The Second Great Revelation
The second great revelation of depression is:
It made you who you are (this is what I wrote about last time).
I’m in the fortunate position that I like who and what I am. I like the things I’ve discovered, along the way, that help me in my fight. I have a wonderful wife, amazing kids, great friends, good hobbies and I’m fit, healthy and strong.
Without depression to drive many of the coping mechanisms, of which these things are outgrowths, I don’t have the life I do. So to the monster I say, “Thanks, you son of a bitch, you’ve helped make me strong and successful, and I wouldn’t go back in time to wish you away. Not for all the money in the world. Fuck you very much.”
Depression made you what you are. Don’t run from it, you’re just running from yourself, lean into it. Discard what you can and embrace the rest.
Don’t let the monster steal your energy, instead, steal his.