Depressed, Sleep Deprived, Exhausted, Yet Pulling Through

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It’s been a long two weeks.

Whatever it was that knocked me sideways bringing on my latest turn with depression doesn’t matter. What matters is how I deal with it.

It’s not whether you get knocked down; it’s whether you get back up.

Vince Lombardi

Too many times over the years I let the depression knock me down. Too many times over the years I took too long getting back up. Hell, it happened as recently as last fall.

I got knocked two weekends ago.┬áSo what? I get knocked all the time, but this time, I didn’t get knocked down.

I was like a punch drunk boxer, wobbling, but still on my feet. Staggering around, staying in the fight.

It wasn’t pretty, and it wasn’t easy, but for the first time, in a long time, I fought the depression to a standstill. Through this latest bout, I maintained more of my baseline commitments than ever before, and yesterday I got up thinking, “I’m back.”

And I am.

One of the worst feedback loops of the depression is the depressed makes you tired, and tired makes you depressed loop. I’m at the end, but fuck me am I tired.

Hopefully two good nights’ sleep will cure that, and I can go back to pushing forward.


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